we’ve all got that weird pretty big secret that we don’t really hide but like we don’t flaunt it like “My brother died of cancer” or “I’m gay” or “I tried to kill myself last year” or anything really and when you find out somebody’s big plot twist you know you’re in this friendship for the long run
- Intimacy. Hold my waist. Stroke my neck. Kiss my forehead. Hold my hand.
- Maturity. Patience is amazing. A prize will come to you when the time is right. Its called falling in love. Waiting is hard. But worth it.
- Honesty. I don’t care what you’ve done. I care about what you will do in the future. Be honest with me, I’ll be honest with you.
- Care. Because not many people give a crap about anything anymore.
When I got home from the fourth of July party at my friend’s house tonight, I looked up and took a second to just breathe and take in my surroundings - that’s when I saw the brilliant stars laid out in the sky above me. I smiled at the constellations and the little stories I always find within them, and then glanced over to my right to see the flickering lightning bugs in the tree next to the driveway. I admired their beauty, completely taking in the natural light amidst all of the blaze and glory of today’s festivities.
And that’s when it hit me. All of these lights, which I had been (and still am) enthralled by, are a mere, brief, and fleeting representation of God’s everlasting light.
The fireworks were breathtaking and colorful and made my jaw drop, but those colors flashed, disappeared, and faded into a smokey haze.
The Chinese lantern - we struggled to release it, almost lit a few people on fire, and then watched it float away into the distance, a speck that eventually was lost.
The stars are brilliant during the night but will surely fade into the brightness of the soon-to-come day.
The lightning bugs will become unsatisfied with their current location and fly away to a better, more interesting place.
The contagious smile and bright eyes of someone I care about will quickly and carelessly throw herself away, giving her attention and promises back to a former girl.
All of these worldly lights change and lose their luster at one point or another. And as each of these fade, I’m reminded that the only light I can depend on to keep shining and guiding my way is my Father.
Lord God, thank you for never fading. Thank you for staying the same through the ages. Thank you for never letting go. Please keep holding on to me. I don’t understand what’s going on right now, but I need You to illuminate my path with Your peace and direction. Piece me back together. Hold me and help me to shine Your light, even when it hurts me. Please shield me and let me rest securely in Your comfort. And please keep shining, even when I question Your reasoning. I love You. I need You. Please help me to remember that You are my bright and constant center, and to not put my faith in sources of light other than You. In Jesus’ name. Amen.